Today I decided to stay in tonight... On the floor that is. And party with my fellow engineers. This is something that I for surely want to do, but at the same time I can't help but think about how much I want to be spending time with another friend of mine. Someone whom I would spend every minute with. I'm pathetic.. I need to be indenpendent

For all of you that don't know. My dad is a super pumpkin grower, and obtains a lot of cash for his successes, so naturally, being dtuch and all, this is very important to my dad. On thanksgiving weekend I'm coming home, and going to work in the morning, but planned on enjoying the afternoon with my family, or at least the evening. No, this is not the case, My parents are going to Port Elgin overnight for a pumpkin weigh-off. Instead I'm going to spend the evening wiht my NEW family.

So I did it.. with the help of my ever so knowledgable companion. I changed the colours, and maybe when I get another few spare minutes I can change some other things.. maybe even put up pictures.. this is sorta exciting

SO I was just sitting here doing my homework, like a good engineering student, and then I realised that I have two 1 litre bottles of water, two 500ml bottles, and a glass.. all full, all of which I am drinking out of. I don't know how it happened. but I can only conclude that I am one thirsty girl.

I roller bladed to the grocery store, bought a bunch of stuff... filled my backpack with heavy things such as jars of pickles and mayonase, and then rollerbladed back. I am a machine.

Call me a racist if you like, but I'm so glad that I didn't go to UofT because frankly Western is multicultural enough for me. And the engineering program is too multicultural. seriously.

There are two things that make kmy life simple and flawless, even overide the stresses of the undergraduate engineering program. William Elliott the third, and Dave.

I finally listened to the Lillywhite sessions. I am in love. This is everything I adore in Dave. I don't think that I will ever require another form of audio enertainment again in my life.

I realise my page is fucked.. I think that the green is too bright as well.. soon I will fix it

I had a wild time in class this morning.. Algebra was a breeze, but I stayed awake, Calculus FINALLY made sense, then chemistry is always fun because I love my prof.. he's rumoured to be an alcoholic. But he has increadable people skills and I just enjoy being in his class. And then comp sci always bites my ass... but I skipped some of it to check out the poster sale.. that was awsome.. I've got an eye for a DAVE poster. And I know exactly where to put it. Eventhough it's going to take up the space for my study notes. Anyways.. I have only 6more hours of class today.. It's going to go by fast I think. I'm bringing a lot of homework to psych.. and then next week I'm going to have the notes for the class so that I can actually pay attention. It's seriously worse than comp sci.. except the teacher is half decent and doesn't suck my cat's testicles.

SO everything is fine. I'm going to try hard in engineering, and then whether I pass or fail, at the end of the year I think that I might switch majors. it's okay. Maybe at the end of the year I'll decide that I actually like engineering, you never know

Okay.. now today I don't like engineering. This is such a roller coaster that I don't like dealing with. I don't think that any other program would be any different though. I don't want to have to do work. So basically I'm too lazy to succeed in life.

So today I decided that I like enginerring. I just have to get off my back and do some homework.

a friend just pointed out that he doens't think that I'm happy. Although I am happier than I have ever been in my life, I am less enthusiatic about social events. Most of the time I just want to crawl into a hole(or my old bedroom) and escape.

Yesterday I decided that I don't want to be an engineer. I think that the feeling has passed now, but I'm still not going to my morning classes. I just wouldn't be able to sit still for two hours today. I will go next week guarenteed, but this week I just can't do it, even though it's probably extreamly important because it's the first one, and all of my friends will be digusted/disappointed because I'm skipping out. And I can't give them a logical explanation besides. "I feel like poo, I'm staying back and doing laundry" They are not going to like that at all. Maybe if I find a periodic table (because my mom forgot it on sunday) I'll do some chem.

I think that "bliss" would appropriately describe the way I feel when I'm in 1W room 09. But I'm not a very good english student so I don't know if that word is strong enough.

I finally got around to reading other people's blogs.. and just for the record I like Jen's long blogs.. 'cause I know and like jen.

I need yogourt. seriously I'm having a withdrawel. Calculus just got to me and my head hurts, what I really want is my comfort *blanket* but that would be bad 'cause it doesn't solve anything, just postpones the headache. Screw laundry I'll do it later tonight.

Last night I fell asleep at 10:00... I'm such a baby. I had such a big night planned to, and basically I ruined it. Apparently my friend isn't upset about this, but I don't believe it. He's just too nice to tell me that I'm the biggest dissapointment since we moved into residence. I completely feel guilty and ashamed about not being able to handle it and falling asleep. I think that I need to grow up and stop being so proud.

I lve living in confined spaces and having everything at your fingertips... like the computer

I went to go and get a snack... I pulled out some celery and the cheese whiz, then I picked off a stalk and realised that it was too narrow to efficiently put cheeze whiz on.... THEN I realised that I don't have to put cheese whiz on it, it's my own jar of cheese whiz, I can dip my stick right in it! it was waaay exciting.

and I'd like to apologise more my sister not blogging.. I stole the home computer and they ordered a new one but it's not in till later this week.

Last night I drank... a decent amount. I forget a bunch of things, but I know that I didn't do anything wrong because a very good friend of mine (he's also my boyfriend) was there, I only drink when he's around. He takes good care of me.

So I finally have my internet hooked up, and was making the rounds on the blog pages, only to be hugely dissappointed when I realised that Kevan has decided to stop his blog page. This isn't any good for me because really it was my only contact I had left with him. But it really wasn't my decision was it. Friendships are a double sided relationship. So anyways.. school's not to bad right now.. I do have a zillion hours of things that I could be doing that would really help me out in my classes. But I have found better things to do with my time. I can't really re-cap on last week 'cause I hate it when people write those superly duper long entries... well unless it's someone that I really know well, or they attended band camp, but otherwise I don't care for them. So to avoid it. Frosh week wasn't bad, I didn't drink much and still have my dignity.

SO I snuck into my friends res, and while he's talking on the phone I snuck onto the internet. So so far it's been a bust, o-week and all, except for the engineering events, they're great, and visitng iwth my highschool friends, that's been a lot of fun to. And at first I didn't think that I liked my roomates, but they're getting better, our room has been voted the *best* room on the eng floor at our res. which is true. And someone but *hottie* over my picture in the hall, and that was exciting, except that I'vve found a new time to occupy my time, a boyfriend. yes, I know it's hard to believe. and it's not like I met him yesterday, we've been hanging out for several (6) weeks. you *might* know who he is. As soon as I have a computer I'm going to blog as frequently as possible. Even though I'm almost alwasy buzy I'm beginning to utilise the wee hours of the morning, I don't think that I've been in bed before 3 since I got here. Except for the one night that I didn't even show up at res. whoops. Yes. All my roomates have their own computers and it makes me very jealous. But I do'nt say anything, they dont' know how big of an internet freak I am yet. So yep.. hopefully I'll write soon

Hi Lydia.

SO I went to camp today.. it was very sad. I wish that I had gone up just to spend the week with Jen. Even though I've met her once I just know that we think alike and would get along really well.. but what is done is done.

I won't have a computer for a while, so I'm not sure what that means for my blogs. there are other resources.. but we'll see. I'll try my hardest,... good luck to everyone moving in tomorrow.

"Steve Munday" smunday@uwo.ca, "Rui Gu" gurui826@hotmail.com, "Pat Offi" ptoffi@home.com, "Ngan Duong" ngan6@hotmail.com, "Matthew Forrest" forrestmatt@hotmail.com, "Martin Choo" mchoo@uwo.ca, "Mark De las Alas" mdelasalas@starmail.com, "Lui Guofo" gulfliu@hotmail.com, "Laura Hammond" thelhammy@hotmail.com, "Kevin D. Burgess" Kevin_david_Burgess@hotmail.com, "Justin Kianfar" jkianfar@hotmail.com, "Hisham Sadiyyah" hisham_417@yahoo.ca, "David J. To" dto@uwo.ca, "Arthur J. Swirski" jampolak@home.com, "Arsalan Darrani" bk_arsenal@hotmail.com, "Anna L. Willemse" anna_willemse@hotmail.com, "Cuong Nguyen" cnguyen6@uwo.ca


this is the list of people that get the enginerring letters that I get from UWO. (Western) Munday, Burgess, and Forrest are fairly familular names, but seriously, Kevin, Steve and Matthew, are pretty masculin names. Maybe *Rui* is a girl's name?

so, like eveyone else, waiting till the last minute to acknowledge the fact that tomorrow we go our separate ways, today I said my goodbye. I'm not a crier. Tara said that I wouldn't cry. And as far as she knows I didn't. I walked out of the garage, into my moms car, and bawled my eyes out. It just hit me. That was the LAST time I was going to see tara for a good time. Tara, the girl that I saw roughly 36 days out of the 40 days of summer vacation, and every day previous. The girl that I tell everything, and feel absolutely comfortable with, the girl that I have cuddled with on the couch, and had numerous sleepovers, the girl that encourages me to get drunk and then holds my hair when I have too much to drink, the girl that is constantly letting me know how hot my new, or old, shirt is. This was the first time I had to unwillingly say goodbye to someone. It was hard. Sure, life will go one without her, but it just won't be as fun.


So I got home from work today and I was completely confused. I raced into the house to enjoy the last dinner with my parents, and to seek some advice. My parents aren't home. But they left a note, they are at another neighbourhood's neighbourhood picnic.